current state of mind

hello celeste. how's life been treating u so far? melbourne's good and beautiful and full of life, and the playlist on ur ipod seems more meaningful than it used to. good for u girl. u've smiled at urself more than u had in a million years because there's noone that matters who's here with u to share that smile with. u cry urself to sleep more than u shld've in a thousand years, because life alone is sometimes lonely and i understand, it can be hard to bear. u have drawn more than u shld've in a hundred years, and isnt that wad u've wanted in a very long time? that's another reason worth smiling for. u've known urself more than u shld've in a decade, alone time always gives u that luxury isnt it? didnt realise u're capable of this much until u're actually doing it, and doing it well. Altho there're times of doubt, times when u totally feel fucked up and all alone, and feel that things are unbearable and u're all prepared to give it all up, i'm sure u know that this one year is still gonna be all worth it, even if u do not know why the hell He'd put u here; in this moment, in this time, in this place. for that one very reason. faith.